Erm..

Today a small little chat set me thinking..
Actually this was my first time being so straightforward to someone..
Someone whom i cared for their feelings..
Well, i was thinking if it was a good idea..
Didn't think too much too..

But the moment i said it..
Some kinda harsh feeling came over me..
If you're reading this, this post is just to state how i feel..

Maybe this looks stupid or something..
If you read it u may think I'm being too paranoid..
Lols..

Like how i really looked at myself..
Sometimes i can't help but to feel that beating around the bush is quite nice..
At least someone won't have to be sianed, or maybe another can regret less for what is said..
But..
You don't like it..
Nonetheless, i feel a bit of regret here and there..
Guess that's why there are so many sorries..
Can't help it, can i?

The moment u say something..
It's done..
You can't take it back again..
It's like either i fall down hard and die or land with a soft thud..

The speaker is the one feeling the weirdness and hurt? and regret and what so ever feelings ( so confusing)..
Not the listener..
The listener will probably be laughing or something..
Guess that's all i can say..
Talking in this way does not make me feel right at all..
But i can't go around saying what i don't mean..
I'm in a confused state now..
Wondering if i should continue such actions in future..

There has already been a few times previously..
Didn't really dare to say..
But now, i really don't feel right..
So I'm voicing out..
To whoever it concerns most..
Thanks for trying to understand..