Wrong?

jus talked to kc..
it seems like there are many problems now..
maybe it doesn't seem big at the moment..
but soon it will..
she says it probably will..

i wonder how does it feel like to put on a false front seriously..
ur life has just turned up side down..
and yet it seems like nothing happen..
you do things which you normally dun do..
well i do..
but then tats overboard..
have you ever considered about the others..
or rather spare a thought for them?
cos i dun see that in ur actions..

kc was right..
we were like flings..
a moment ago it was there..
now it's gone..
it's like this sudden discussion that made mi realise alot of things..
about alot of ppl and events..

where you always get the moment of happiness..
then it's gone..
empty..
DANG..
you noe..
we had a pretty big impact on each other..
just that it's not noticed..

maybe we felt like it was time already..
dragging on isn't really the way..
sometimes too, we feel that there is no trust at all..
so hey..
if u really think so..
really percieve in your own thoughts..
submerge urself in ur own world..
ignore others..
being emo..
not picking urself up..

then we will have to give you a tight slap on ur face..
we hate to shower care and concern over someone who doesn't appreciate it..
but we can't leave you to die..
if you really want to die, then do it after i die..

learn to pick up urself ok..
the world is not perfect..
u think u live in wonderland??

u think u will be super lucky everyday?

u think u will be smiling everyday?

u think everyone gets wad ur smiling at?
u think every is as blissful as before?
u think u will not fall down?
or u think there will always be a saviour to save you?

NONE..
let mi tell u again..
none of this will happen..
becos tis is a realistic society..
u slap someone..
and u get a slap back..

u think the other person will be kind enough to offer u the other cheek to slap?
u may even get a beating outta it..
try to know ur limits..
cuz clearly.. U don't.
and in the big picture, there is a big view and everything..
but u can't just look at it like that..
there are many small details to make that picture look perfect and flawless..
focus on that too..
i believe it will save u..

we truely hope u will pick urself up..
be more open..
just talk..
if u don't talk..
then we won't know..

u keep saying we won't understand u..
have u ever tried letting us into ur world?
the door is always closed..
u only open to take a peek..
u are scared..
u like to keep things inside..
u have deep dark secrets?
then say no one understands..

dun make mi feel wth again..

whenever i think of tis thing, i feel sad..

as if it was me..

if someday we realise it's the end..
i will still try to save u..
but..
i will be angry..
becos i hate to save someone who doesn't want to save herself..

are we being nosy?
no.. none at all..
i even feel an obligation to save an injured stranger on the road..
u noe ur place in me..
so wad do u think i would do to u?

i hope you'll understand..
the bottomless pit isn't really bottomless..
it's jus a figment of ur imagination..
grow up..
learn to experience the world another way..
alright?

with love,
kc and i