Change of Life..

today i made new discoveries..
like somethings that were meant to be hidden but unwillingly exposed..
and somethings that were not to be said, but still said..
ouh..
shocked and in awe too..

met drunk fishball and mad scientist out for dinner..
then in the end watched Juno..

ooo..
not bad la the movie..
very meaning ful and funny..
jus tat it is very long..
lols..

imagine keeping awake for like 2 hrs plus when i am super tired..

had a major quarrel/ fight today..
i wasn't happy..
i don't feel justified and fair..
i wanted to be treated as if i had at least some rights..
and not like some doggy, where u say sit then i sit..

i don't like people bossing me around..
u can roll me..
but u cannot roll over me..
Limit and period.
Do that and ur life is over..

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do you people think that ur parents always threaten u with money?
like if u dun do something, then ur allowance will go down??
woah..
my mom did..
and was super pissed..
i was like knnbccb..
as if i would die without that few pieces of cash..
and even if i did die, i don't think they bother too..
family members oso wanna be so money minded..
might as well count how much i owe..
when i die i repay u ok?
this is utter CRAP!!!!
rubbish and idiotic conversations should be kept to the minimum..
zzz..

i am stressed now??
i think i am..
i am facing confusing emotions..
and i dunno wad to do..
the problems start to pile up again..
and i can't even have a moment of peace..
i am so wth..
i seriously wanna break out of this cycle of frustration..
but can i??
isit that easy??
nope..
that's a straight answer..

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Conclusion:

Firstly, i hate home..
Secondly, i hate wad is going on around me..
Thirdly, i would gladly give my life up if this crap continues..
Fourthly, i wanna have peace and rest well..
Fifthly, i wanna know why i think this way..

seems like only i understand myself best afterall..

To Me: " Tough luck idiot.. Push too far and you'll fall.. "