i duno if tis is correct..

i duno if tis is correct but i am jus voicing out my feelings..
i get a very sensitive feeling about something..
and my gut feeling is mostly right..

u noe, if i jus voice out and say wad i wanna say, i think it would be very hurting..
and if i dont voice out anything, i can only cry to myself..
cuz no one is gonna understand..

sometimes i jus cant understand..
if on the surface it's nice and shiny..
then deep down inside it's very dark..
wads the point??
hmmmm..
i dunno leh..

i wanna feel better..
i always fall down..
but i stood up again de..
tis time i jus wanna try and prevent myself frm falling..

but i am always wondering..
i wonder if wad i am seeing is reality..
or is jus another fake bluff..
i am scared..
very scared that it is..
i am so close to believing it..
and trusting it once again..
please dun shatter on me again..
becos i cannot take it..

it's like everytime u shoot in, it gets deeper..
i try to ignore, but cannot..
i also try to look positive, cannot oso..

i am very scared to say anything..
becos anything can change everything..
waaa..
i cannot afford to lose..
becos tis is too much..

i seek help..
sincerely frm the bottom of my heart..