For the better..

Sometimes, i hate myself. For not being able to express myself clearly.
And using words, just doesn't make much sense, does it?

Without people having to look at your face, it is very difficult.
Deep down hurting and wincing in agony.
Yet the words still do not get across.

I feel demoralized.
I feel sad.
If there was a way to made people understand what i am picturing, that would be great.
It is always the most difficult thing to do, to get your thoughts across to others.
Some way or another, the thoughts did not seem as serious, or as hurt as it should be.
If words could replace facial expressions, then i wouldn't have to spend difficult times clarifying things and working things out.

All i wanted was to make you understand.
It was that simple.
The feelings felt were the sourness and the disappointment.
Not being able to express in words is truly a miserable thing.

It was still felt as if the expressions are being labeled as " JUST WORDS"
so " JUST WORDS" didn't mean anything?
Then I'd have to be awfully really feeling terrible.

I value words.
And i value what they could bring to either party when it is spoken right.
When it is wrong, that's when everything goes haywire.

I am feeling very down as i am typing this.
If the words didn't show that it teared..
Would you even believe how seriously i took this matter for?