Am i looking forward?? Or reminiscing the past??

Judge me.

Do i look forward by seeing the opportunity in every difficulty?
Or do i reminisce the past by seeing the difficulty in every opportunity?

I've been doing alot of thinking lately..
And it hurts..
It hurts just to know that somehow or another..
I'm actually quite lost..

Here it is..
In a nutshell..
Basically we all have a choice..
To see the world the way we want..

There are tons of opportunities and heaps of difficulties in every one's life..
This is an unchangeable and real given fact..
So here's where the wonderful perspective comes in..

I see a possibility..
A new job path?
A new road to further my studies?
A blooming relationship?
And then guess what happens?

There are only 2 choices..
Do i immediately immerse myself in thoughts of what could go wrong??
Or do i rein in my desires because I'm afraid of getting hurt??

I couldn't answer this question..

Either could go wrong..

Then i start to look at the difficulties..
And i face them head on..
What do i see??

Toil and frustration without compensation..
Or maybe i see steps, even painful ones, on the path to a goal..
Things that are worth accomplishing are difficult..
And the course to true success, love or relations never did run smooth..

No news here?

So what do i do??
Do i take another look and see the opportunities hiding in the cracks of every difficulty??
And just perhaps..
Acknowledge the difficulties that are inherent in them..

I've been dodging many chances..
Because i fear..
And it all slipped by..
When remorse engulfs me..
That is when i am hurt..

Our senses don't decieve us.. Our judgement does..

Remember half the glass being full and being empty story?

This is what i think..

Sometimes what I see is a glass half full of the good things life has to offer..
Laughter..
Companionship..
Fun..
Resources..
And I'm fine until i get to thinking and thinking and judging that what i see is not enough..

"I'm going to move out soon"
" My bank account is running low"
"My friends are leaving town"
I'm tired and seriously at the end of my rope..
Now i judge my glass half empty..

Of course, the sad thing is that by judging my glass half empty,
I pretty much guarantee that it is..
And then i tend not to see things for what they probably are..

Sometimes..
I don't hear the concern in a friend's voice when she calls..
And i chafe against her sound advice because i think she's judging me for getting into a jam in the first place..
And then maybe i snap at her..
And she snaps back..
And we both hang up the phone mad..
And she's thinking she won't soon call again, and there it is..
My glass half empty and getting emptier..

If i had paid attention, instead..
To the words my ears were hearing..
Well then things might just have turned out differently..

The place where optimism most flourishes is the lunatic asylum.
Where I can find the mad optimist and say what i feel, feel what i know,
And try to let the best that is possible into my heart..

With a hint of sarcasm..
I am not a pessimist..
To perceive evil where it exists..
In my opinion..
Is a form of optimism..

-_-

Somebody save me~~~

GOOD MORNING EVERYONE!

Yes good morning..
It's a dumb 2am now and i am freakingly awake..

Dear me..
Recently i seem to have the challenge of trying to keep myself awake..
I always wanna fall asleep when..

1. I'm at work and i have nothing to do..
2. I'm at work and i have something to do but i can't drag myself to do it..
3. I can't seem to control my sleepiness..
4. I always doze off when in important situations..
5. I cannot focus on work..
6. I can't get myself awake when I'm at home..
7. I get frequent headaches..
8. And i wake up in the middle of the night for nothing..
9. And i can't get back to sleep again, which ends up with me failing energy tests the next day..
10. And great.. -_- There is an ISO audit tomorrow.. And i haven't memorised my stuff yet..
11. I feel Iike I'm having too much Boo Boo to study.. It so feels like AN EXAM!!!!
12. So much so that I'm falling asleep now..
13. I DON"T HAVE ENOUGH ENERGY!!!!!

And my migraine is back..
Back to haunt me AGAIN!!!

Dear all,

If i get too irritated/ bad/ sarcastic/ evil and etc.. and i do bad stuff for no reason..
Please send mi to IMH for brain overload treatment..

Thank you.

Regards
Me

Anyone has any idea at all how much of hell this is?!!!!

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T.T

Blood donation

Just went for another session of blood donation..
It's just great giving back to the society..
The venue was in an MRT station though..
And i saw many people walking past..

Mumbling to themselves..
Wondering if donating blood is proper..
I see their faces frowning..
Especially older people..
They would give an opinion saying that..
"Why should i give my blood?"
They see no clear benifits..

The thought of taking away that precious bag of red liquid scares them..
Oh well..
Maybe a bit on the needles as well..
But..
It's more of an unwillingness to do so..
Well, it's not an obligation to do so..
It's just reflecting on how much a society thinks about other people..

Every second..
Someone in this world needs blood..
That someone could be a mother giving birth..
An accident victim..
A girl suffering from a life threatening anaemia..
A boy with dengue fever..
A father facing open heart surgery..
Or even your closest one somewhere needing life..

Life is unpredictable..

You are born with a healthy body..
You have sufficient internal organs to keep u alive..
Well, others don't..
They depend on life sustaining machines..
They feed on blood by others..

Think about it..
You have 2 kidneys when you were born..
Perfect organs..
Healthy blood..

But wait..
You didn't bring any money with you into this world..
So what if you can give money?
Can it buy life?
Can your money be a substitution for a kidney?
I doubt so..

So.....
I strongly urge all of you..
Please try to give..
Give people the treasure that cannot be bought..
That feeling of unheard thanks..
The tears that cry for a successful transfusion..

You..
You made that possible..
Because without you..
Life can't multiply..
The fruit that you will give to others will grow into a tree..
And in turn..
It bears more fruit..
Life goes on..

So....
Anyone needs blood?
Or a kidney??
Hahas~
A+ and 1 kidney for offer~~
XD

For friends, it is a one time offer~~
Really literally 1 time offer..
First come first serve~
Cuz i only have 2 kidneys..
Haha~
so i can spare you 1..
=)

1.

I really Wish you the Best!
=)

Remorse

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Joke?

Joking?

Please freakingly make a difference between joking and being serious..

If something is meant to be a joke..
Or not offensive..
Please state it clearly..

If not accidents will always happen..
Again and again and again..
When will the circle end?

I don't know..
I don't take serious jokes anymore..
Nor malicious intentionally evil jokes that are not only harmful to you..
But also to me..

That's about all..
This is a warning..

Tell me..
What should i do??

Or rather..
Tell yourself what you should do..