Announcement...

Blog dead..
Don't refer to it for the time being..
Not exactly in good spirits now..
The cave is closed for now..
The bears are alone now..
Kinda hibernating..
Until..
Who knows..
Bye..

My new clothes~~

Da jia hao~~
I am xiao xiong~~~

Today i got new clothes..
It's a bathrobe..
Xiong xiong buy for mi de..
Tutu choose de..
Wo hao kai xin arr..

Tml going chalet le..
I go wif xiong xiong..
=D

To xiong xiong friends: ni men bu yao qu fu wo oo~
if not tutu will chop u up..
=PP

Dear Gabriel..

I'll never get to see you again..
My friend..
I'm sure everyone around you will be sad..
I know you don't want us to be..
It's ok..
I'll always remember you..
Always..
With my deepest sympathy..
Rest In Peace..

Amen..

R.I.P
In memory of you..
Friday, August 24, 2007

Hey..

Ask me..
Ask and i may reply..
Well if you don't..

I wonder..

You ask too little questions..
Don't use your own assumptions..
Don't..
Simply don't...

When i say questions, i mean real questions..

Sometimes fooling around too much isn't that great after all..

You don't know what will happen though..

But i do..

It's all for a cause..
Far greater than you can imagine..
Far superior than what i know..
I'll never say..

Decipher it as you wish..

And..
Don't take me for a fool..

My Blues...

Today is blue..
That's all..
Nothing to be happy about..
Just blue..

But xiao xiong is happy..
He has got his own baby bear..
It's a me to you bear..
By someone special..
To someone special..

The bear wears a panda costume..
Holding some leaves
Very cute and cuddly soft toy..
Just too bad it's too small for me to hug..
But big enough for xiao xiong..
He loves it..

Here's a pic of xiao xiong hugging it..

Dear Law...

Sigh~
I try to study you..
Read you..
Look at you..
Memorise you..
I even tried to treat you as my good friend who would help mi get good grades for my exams..
Will you??????
I tried to feed you into my brain..
But my roundy brain just doesn't accept it that well..
=(

You are a good thing to focus on..
Interesting enough..
Actually i do love you..
But too bad..
We got no fate..
But how good would it be if u had no finals..
Then my brain would not have to go through so much pain..
Hurts my whole body also..
Sooner or later i will die..
Wo hui bei ni zhe mo si de..

Xiong Xiong will become like this..
X . X

All because of Law........

Piano Chionging~~~~

^ ~ ^

One Nice Song~~ Piano Solo.. Bu Neng Shuo De Mi Mi..

Free sheet music for you people~~
^ ~ ^

18 Nian Qian De Jing Tian~~~

18 years ago..
On this very day..
Somewhere in the forest..
In the dark woods..
There lived a bear..

This bear was abandoned and alone..
With a blue nose and roundy dirty paws..
She slowly navigated through the dense covering of trees..
Trying to find her way out..
She fought the pain from the scratches and bruises..
It was hard..

Then..
The bear reached a town..
A small little village..

As she was about to exit the dense covering of the forest..
She heard a loud humming..
Someone was singing a tune..
The melody sounded so happy..
So joyful..

So the bear put her head out and looked..
Ahhh~~
It's a rabbit..

But then the rabbit stopped..
Her tune stopped..
She turned towards the bear and looked..
She stared hard, but could not figure out what was behind the trees..
Slowly, cautiously, she walked over..
Bongs.. Bongs..

The bear was scared..
She had never seen a rabbit before..
She rolled into a ball of fur and hid herself..

Then, she felt a tap on her roundy paw..
Slowly, she raised both paws to reveal what was infront of her..
It was the rabbit!!!

The bear was now shivering..
Brrrrrr..
She was afraid that she would be eaten by that rabbit..

But no..
The rabbit smiled and stuck out a paw..
[''\~
It seemed like.. '' Here.. Take it''

Looking at the rabbit..
The bear cried and hugged the rabbit's paw..
Soon, the rabbit brought the bear home..

Rabbit's home was shabby..
She works the whole day..
Selling baby carrots..

When she reached the cave, she went to the spring and took a bucket of water..
Rabbit poured half into the cooking pot..
And half on to the bear..

=)
With a big smile on her face, she said..
'' you look so dirty~''
She scrubbed the bear's fur..
Soon a shiny white coat revealed..
'' wow.. you look so clean and neat..'' said rabbit..

The bear looked at herself..
She never could have expected that she could look so neat and clean..
She sniffed around..
There was fragrance..
Ahhhhh~~

The soup was ready..
The rabbit scooped 1 bowl for herself and 1 bowl for the bear..
As the bear was about the drink her soup, she looked into the reflection of the water..
Her blue nose was gone..
It turned back to a black nozzle..
With a tint of pink in it..
How heartwarming..
The cold bear is finally warm..

As the days passed, the bear and the rabbit lived their days by, by growing baby carrots..
Early in the morning they would take those to sell in the market..
The bear also made friends with a Bee..
She made a contract with the bee stating that in exchange for several pieces of bread, the bee has to give her some honey..

So the cave's main course was THE HONEY CARROT SOUP SPECIAL..
=DD

The 3 of them lived.. Happily Ever After..
The End..
=D


Till this very day..
The bear is very thankful for what the rabbit has done..
Really very thankful..
Xie Xie ni..
=)

Someone who has lotsa dreams~~

Someone likes dreams..
A lot..
Funny and no link dreams..
LOLs..

Anyways..
Today i learnt to..

1. Have a lot of rest
2. Drink lotsa and lotsa and lotsa water
3. See a doctor
4. Have someone to take care of me
5. Add honey to water if it makes me feel better

LOLs~
Hahahaha..
Thanks~~
^ ~ ^

Bad Afternoon Da Jia..

Just woke up..
Got a serious headache already..
Jaw pain..
Throat super sore..
Damn scratchy too..
My nose is blocked..

I'm so sick..
Almost dead..
I'm reaching my destination already..
A few more symptoms and i will lie on the ground..
Like this..
[''\ X . X /'']

Shucks..
Didn't expect this to happen..
Ugh~

Maybe i could take over the person shouting KOPI- O..
or santa's red nose reindeer..
My face does suit these jobs now..
...
-_-

Sadd..
Sigh..

Sick ler...

Xiong Xiong is sick le..
Hao xin ku..
Flu..
Throat prob..
Headache..
Mi paw cannot even talk..
Nor open my mouth..

You shui neng gou jiu jiu wo ne???

Luckily just now tutu recommend mi to eat honey drops..
Or i really no voice ler..
Xie Xie tutu..
^ ~ ^

Sick, Sicker, Sickest..
x . x

A Piece Of Advice~~

Let professor bear give all of you a piece of advice when doing facial masks..

Rule number 1: Do NOT Laugh

Rule number 2: Do NOT talk to someone who will make you laugh

Rule number 3: Do not put your status as away, because someone will still make you laugh


Advice number 1 : If you have a chao tah face, please do a whitening mask

Advice number 2 : If you have moh peng face ( face full of holes due to sqeezing, poking, proding, itchy hand keep touching face.. etc..), please do an acne mask

Advice number 3: If you have super super snow flaky skin( very dry.. due to too much swimming or basking in the sun), please do a hydrating mask..

Advice number 4: If you have oily face, please do a oil control mask..

Advice number 5: If you have normal face, please do a pore cleansing mask..

Advice number 6: IF YOU HAVE ALL THE ABOVE.. I DON"T KNOW HOW YOU MANAGE TO GET IT..

MY ADVICE IS: PLEASE GO TO A PLASTIC SURGEON.. MAYBE HE/SHE CAN HELP YOU.. IF NOT, ZI JI BAO ZHONG, HAO ZI WEI ZHI, AND GOOD LUCK..



bear bear is walking on the road..
AHHHHHH~~~~
MONSTER ARRRR~~~
WAD SAI IS THAT????
OMGF..
THE FACE..
CHAO TAH..
MOH PENG..
FLAKY SKIN..
OILY..
WORSE THAN SAI!!!!!!!
* faint *

Some paw press 995..
tutu on the phone: moshi moshi..
watashiwa tutu desu..
requesting an ambulance immediately..

Pee Poh Pee Poh Pee Poh~~~~

[''\ x . x /'']

It's been so long already~~

And THIS IS STILL SO FUCKED UP!!!

It's been too fucking long..

What's wrong with the fucking society..

Fucking crap..

zzz..

So Fucked up..

zzzzz..

Fucking computer
Friggin Fuckin Fuck
zzz

Today is exam day~~

Woke at 8am today..
For today is the first day of my exams..
Waaaaaa..
Horrible..
Someone said i was over stressed..
Worry too much..

LOLs..
Thanks to all of my friends, I'm able to stand up once again..
Mr Lee JL.. If u read this please don't think is you...
LOL~~ BHB lvl 2000..
=P

Bong Bongs..
Bee Bee..
Piggy..
And many other people helped..
Thanks da jia..
^ ~ ^

Well..
Not much of nervousness today..
Just a normal day..
To think i woke up early to study..
LOLs..
Not exactly early too..

There's just too much to read..
It's like..
No matter now much you read..
You will never get the satisfactory feeling that you're prepared..
There will always be some doubts here and there..
Worry too much again..
-_-

I really no hope..
Ben Dan bear..
The tutu say if i think some more she slap me..
LOL..
I shall not think anymore..
* hide *

U cannot catch me..
NEH ni NEH ni boo boo..
=P

Mugging~~~~

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Muggin Muggin Muggin Muggin Muggin..

OMG!!!! I'm So Sorry..

I just had a dream..
And i jolted up..
Scared..
Guess what i saw..
A bright white light shining at my face..
I thought i was still dreaming..
But no..

The truth is that i forgot to hibernate my com..
There were many orange lights too..
I was like..
OMG!!!
I'm so dead..

To those who talked to me recently and i didn't reply..
Or those who talked to me and i replied, but the reply was short..
And those whom i said would be right back..
AND THOSE WHOM I DINT CLICK ON THEM TO TALK.. ( i really want to talk to you.. )
T ~ T

I'm very very sorry..
I am going through a very bad and horrible time now..
It's not that i didn't want to talk to all of you..
It's just that sometimes i feel tired and i just sleep..
I fall asleep unknowingly..

And as usual..
I don't off my com..
So people assume that I'm online..
Oh please don't..
I most probably will be away or asleep..

I have enough misunderstandings already..
So don't add to it anymore..

I guess this will be over soon..
After everything is settled..
I'll be back to the old me..

Thanks for listening to my ranting..
Really do appreciate it..
=)

I'm all alone.. In the dark space..

Retribution..

It happened..
Again and again..
I wonder how this world revolves around..
Being unfair..
There's no logic to it..
There wasn't any to begin with..

In such a world..
Such coldness..
It's too empty..
Soon it's going to be dark..
And i hide in a corner..

No one is coming to save me..
I'm done for..

Even if someone does come along..
It may be false..
My own hallucination..
My false assumption..
And if it is true..
I trust no one..

Today i'm Abnormal..

It's so early in the morning..
I can't understand why..
I just woke..
Seems like my heart's been bugging myself lately..
Too many worries..
Too much troubles..

Guess i can't get those cleared off my head..
I've been thinking a lot recently..
Making mi frustrated and irritated..
Sometimes i get angry with myself for no reason..
Zi ji gen zi ji guo bu qu..

Recently so stressed and sian..
Hate exam period..
Really shutting me off..
Maybe soon i'll shut down permanently..
Even if i don't..
I'll be so hurt already..
-_-

Sickening day..
Sickening life..
Damn it..
I'm so damned..
Like i was destined to go to hell or something..
Just couldn't be saved..
Worst of the lot..

Thinking positive doesn't help mi..
But i thank those who asked mi to do so..
The more i think the more insecure i get..
It's like being over confident..
Too much bear..
I will break down..

But not yet..
I have so much to go through..
Maybe when the dark clouds go away..
I can see the bright sun shine again..

I don't know what to do..

Sian..
Stressed..
Worried..
Fustrated..
Angry..
Paranoid..
Having too much thoughts..
Hate..
Guilt..

I wonder why..
I want things to be solved..
I hate dragging..
I am so...
ARGH!!!!

Worries...

It's been a few days now..
Whenever i see things..
I feel as though if many of them aren't going the right way..
It's not as it's supposed to be..

Why?
You may ask..
I can hardly give or find an answer..

They just aren't..

Tell me..
How many times have you looked at a help less creature..
Be it a human being..
Or anything..
Seeing them struggle..
Grasping for air..
Reaching out for help..
And you can't do anything..

For those who have encountered such things..
Such experiences..
It cannot be explained..

Whenever you do anything..
During the day or night..
You feel insecure..
You worry..
Subconsciously..
You think..
Wonder..
"What can be done?"
And how..

All may seem alright..
Great..
But the flip side is always devastating..
Horrible..
Unexplainable..

I empathise so much that i too am feeling the hurt..
It's as though it's my fault..
For some inexplicable error..
Or mistake..
Directly..
Or indirectly..
It's my fault..

I allowed this to happen..
Although i did not wish to..
But still..
Fate played a game with me..
Cruel and bitter..

I had to go through the agony..
The gruesome hurt that has engulfed my worries..
For i too feel the same..
I am so hurt..

For those who didn't go through such things..
I wish you all the best..
For i see many people..
Who without the touch..
The factor..
Unable to understand why things are going this way..
And yet..
They still accepted it..
They treated as if it's God's will..
Accepting fate..

Sometimes i feel that fate has a weird way of going through things..
Like how you're there and not being able to do a thing..
How it hurts you to see a young bird fall from a tree and dying..
The mother bird doesn't care much..
She has too many young ones to care for..

The sight froze..
The slow descending flight..
Towards death..
Towards a new life..

It must have been painful for those who look at it..
But for the little one..
It's just part and parcel of life..
It accepted it..
Gave some struggle..
And gave up..

Prior to everything, has an ending..
How things are going to end..
How situations are going to end..
How human actions affect the world around us..

Hey..
You never know..
Maybe you think you're insignificant..
Small and weak..
One you couldn't possible do much..

But NO..
Each and every small action..
Gesture, feeling, thought..
May affect everything..
Many things occur because of one person..
One situation which doesn't permit it..
It happened..
And you just have to face it..

You have thoughts..
You think..
The more you think, the more u feel unsafe..
Being unsafe creates a barrier between you and the world..
Not being able to understand why..
You fear for the consequence..
You do not know if you are able to take the blow..
You try to escape..
Run away from life..
But life is cruel..
It doesn't allow that..
It will want you to face..
Face what you have created..

Many People care for you..

They Love you..

They just can't say it out..

The only way left is to express..

And it depends on how much you see and absorb..

How well you accept your surroundings..

I too face the same situation..
I feel insignificant..
But i can't help but think this way..
The blame goes to mi..
Falls on me like a heavy guilt..
The worst thing is that it's not physical..

The moment i realise it..
It seemed as though the world came crushing down on me..

Funny day~~~

Hahahahahahaha~~~

Just came back from my bear outing..
Today lots of interesting things happen..
Usaki got very happy today..
Seems like she got a lot of luck and ren yuan today..
Hahahaha..
Must be because of me..
LOLOL~~
Me bhb..

Anyways..
Intended to go for a study session..
Ended up food hunting..
Wahaha..
Guess it can't be helped..
Can it? ^^

Someone is always hungry..
Complaining of insufficient food..
Hahahaha..
But to be able to eat is a gift..
Thou shall not waste it..
=DDDD

Funny funny stuff happened..
I'm lazy to type it out..
Hahahaha..

I am so tired today..
But still..
Because laughter is contagious..
Someone laughed..
So i laughed..
Someone smiled..
So i smiled..
In the end, i got the laughing disease..
All thanks to the spreader..
Very positive indeed..
LOLS~~

Stay happy always..
=)

Mornings and Afternoons~~~

Ahhhh~~
Good morning everyone..
Or rather..
Good Afternoon..

Guess all of you had a nice sleep???
Well...
The bear paw did not!!!

RAWR RAWR~~
Early in the morning i accompanied my mom for breakfast..
Went to Hougang mall..
The food there was okok lar..
New food court new system..
But then it was super early..
I think my taste buds were still happily sleeping..
LOLS~~

After that walked around and around and around..
Round and round..
Until my head almost became super round..
Lols..

Overall today's weather is hot..
HOT!!!!!
Here comes the hot bear ok..
*clap clap*
LOLS i so bhb..

Wahaha.. feel like jumping in a pool of ice water..
Hahahahahas..
Later the museum got new exhibition..
Called the Ice bear..
Preserved in excellent condition..
What a professional..
Hahahaha..

Later mi paw is going out..
Going to study ler..
Exam in 6 days and i haven't studied..
OMGS~~
I'm so gonna fail..
I hope somebody saves me..
I seriously do need saving..
Big time..

Well..
Guess i better keep my playful spirits..
And concentrate on my books..
It's mugging time..
*imagine a bear burning midnight oil just to study..*
So hardworking..
LOLS~~
Cute right?????
Wahahahaha!!!!~~~

Hope my mood stays high..
Can't risk anything pulling me down now..
Tsk Tsk..
Bad things go away..
Shoo..
BOOOOOOO!!!~~~
hrumph!!!!

[''\

HOHO HAHA HEHE~~

Today went to pizza hut..Susan phua's leaving us liaos..Have some final catch up..I long time no talk to her le..Gained some insight also..
LOL~~~During the meal..When everyone was so bloated..The evil cow came out with an idea..She wanted to play zhong ji mi ma..The jackpot numbers..If the number u guessed is correct..Then u have to do a forfeit..LOL..
Then i very suay..The first one dio is me..So bo bian..I had to eat 2 pizzas..LOL..
After eating i felt so bloated..So i dint dare to drink any water..Hahahas..
Anyways..It was a fruitful day..
HOHO HAHA HEHE..After that, decided to go to arcade with all of them..When we reach there..OMGS..So many people..Then we thought to ourselves..Better get out fast..LOLS..Or risk becoming minced meat..Hahaha..
In the end went to photocopy my efma notes..I don't know why..But all my past tutorial answers are gone..Waaa..I super sad..I suspect some rabbit ate my papers..She likes to eat things...Maybe take my paper and aim also..
But nevertheless..It's done and we headed for home..But usaki wanted to wait for her mom so i accompanied her..I ended up going the wrong way at times..LOLS..Don't like AMK Hub's structure..Wahaha..
After awhile usaki's mom came ler..So my paw headed home..YAY..What a fruitful day..I am so tired now..
Nite Nites..HOHO HAHA HEHE~~

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Its Really Nothing..

Sometimes i don't understand why..
But i think there are opinions for each and every different person..
But i guess that to me, it really is nothing..
I have my reasons for believing myself..
If others don't believe what i believe..
Well, i can't do anything can i?
Things that look offensive or puzzling to me may not be so to the other people..
It's just the view of things..

I looked back..
It was a pea sized food..
Now it has grown so big..
I can't finish it..
Someone has to help me finish it though..
It's too much to gobble..

Maybe things would be easier if it was taken care more quickly..
Dragging isn't a way to start and stop..
Well, i can't say for sure..
I was just wondering why can't things be accepted the way they are..
Isn't it better?

If each and everytime is going to be like this..
Then i will be very very sad..

Set aside the differences and work together?
Doubts should be cleared in the faces..
Right?

Paw Paw Pain Pain~~

So...
I've decided to be happier a bit..
Brighter a bit..
Have less burden on others..

Hmmm..
I think it will work out soon..

Well..
Recently i typed too much..
My fingers are getting painful..
Really think i type too much..
My paw got problem already..

So today i also don't post too much..
Later really drop off..
If drop off then no good ler..
Evil people can take and sell..

Hahahahaha..
That's all..
Bye bye..
[''\

LOL~~

YOU MADE ME LAUGH!!!!!!
FOR THE FIRST TIME!!!!!
IN DUNNO HOW MANY DAYS!!!!!

LOLOLOL~~~~

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It's okay... It's okay...

I want to take my bag and leave..
I want to be raised up differently..
Different life..
Different time..

The surroundings need to be different..
My opinion needs to change..
I need to fix my brain..
It's been causing me so much trouble..

When i reach the bottom, there is nowhere else to fall..
No one gave up on me..
I gave up on myself..

Hey..
I don't understand..
Why people can just take and go..
Don't they have something to pull them back?
Don't they have some thought of hesitation?

I was pondering..
Maybe i am so different..
No one will get it..
They just don't..

I'm not saying people should be alike..
Maybe just that similar..
Being different causes war..
See the World War 1 and 2..
Both arise due to the fact that people are different..
Although greed too affects the position..

To create you need matter..
But i can't find any matter..
I searched and searched..
Lots of places, time, people gave mi hope..
In the end..
They were all false..

I can't believe myself believing all of them..
I'm a stupid idiot..
Practically, it can't be helped..

I've been leaning too much on myself..
I thought i could handle everything..
But sadly, No..
Well, maybe i should change..
I could lean on something that would never fall..
Or something that would fall occasionally..
Or something that would always fall..

See the difference?
Well, hope you do..

Somethings aren't meant to be elaborated..
It loses it's effect..
And it would not be so meaningful anymore..

On some days, I wished for things entirely different..
Things that cannot be done..
Or rather..
Quite impossible..

I love the sun..
The glowing warmth..

I love the snow too..
Soft flakes falling on your face..

If i could sit on a snowy capped mountain top..
With warm sunshine glowing on my face..
I'd die happily..
Even if it was there and then..
I would have no regrets..

I want to make a wish..
If i have nothing left..
It will be this.

Sian sian day~~

Today is a very sian day..

But thanks to some people..
Not really people maybe..
Usaki and aunty accompanied me..
So my mood went up a bit..

Paw Paw went paking the whole day..
Rawr a lot today..
Made funny faces..
Made funny noises..
Did funny actions..
Stupid stuff..
Dumb faces..
Contradiction..
Pissed..

Overall, mood was very variable..
Not that good..
Not that bad..
I wan to feel so tired that i can just sleep..
Somehow..
I can't..
I wonder why though..


+++


I have just taken my first step..
My first step made my day..
I loved the smile on my face..
I wished i could see it more often..

But i am trying very hard..
Trying to make it real..
To realise what i have been thinking..

But i have a few doubts on my mind..
Would you be so kind so as to answer me?
I think you would not..
You wouldn't say..
You always don't..
I know..

I do not dare to ask..
Maybe u realise..
Maybe u do not..
But i hope this ends soon..
Because..
I really hope i could be answered..

I am afraid to ask..
Afraid of the consequences..
What that may happen..
What that may become..

I have been thinking..
Do i really need to put in so much?

Please tell me I'm a fool..
Idiot.. I am..
Baka Baka me..

I love the world.. But does it love me?

Slept at 5am..
Woke at 9am..
Really not enough sleep..
But then again i can't get to sleep..
Too paranoid i guess..
Think too much..

Today someone told me..
Take my first step..
He said that at 4.45
What a time to begin my first step..
But nevertheless i am grateful..
So grateful..

Thank You, nice person..

And Bee Bee..
Waaaaa.. Bee Bee understand why i siao siao..
Thanks to her i became a bit better..
Hahahaha..

Can manage a laugh at least..
Even a small one will do..
At least it shows their effort has been appreciated..

Well, i guess i will continue to hide..
When all is gone..
I will emerge..
A new face..
A new soul..

By that time..
I really hope that i have grown..
Do not wish to be a burden anymore..
To anyone..
Or myself..

I love this world..
But does it love me?

Do i really have to pull in my full effort for everything i do?

A part of me~

I want to tell you so much..
Yet as i speak, all my words are lost..
What i can find is only a space on empty wilderness..
I cannot do anything to bring myself back from my dreams..
All hope is not lost yet i feel the sense of judgement falling down hard on me..

I will be judged.

Whether to Hades or Saint Peter?
It depends..
Personally i favour the space in between them..
The vast space that i've created..
For myself..
My own kind.
My kin..

They do not last long..
They fade..
They go..

Calling..
Screaming..
Shouting..
All to no avail..

What can i do..
In agony, none can do anything..
Neither can i..
So let there be hope..
Hope to do faith..
For all of them..
For all of me..

Searching for a quick death..
Looking for an answer..
Reaching to the sky..
Grasping my dreams..

All that's left of you is me.

I AM NOT HAPPY~~~

Today not very happy..
I laughed a lot but still i am not happy..
If u wanna ask me why i'm not happy, i can only say i don't know..
But i do know that i'm very not happy..
I am not that angry but i am not happy..
Seriously not happy..
Not satisfied..
Bad paw day..
Ask me why???
Let me tell u..
Because i am not happy..
I don't know why..
But i am super duper not happy..
My ears not happy..
My head not happy..
My paw not happy..
My heart not happy..
My stomach not happy..
My fur not happy..
My tail not happy..
The whole roundy brain also not happy..
Hiazzzzz..
If u ask me why........
I REALLY DON"T KNOW!!!!
I don't know what to say..
Still i am not happy..

Firstly, i am not happy..

Secondly, i am not happy..

Thirdly, i am very not happy..

Fourthly, i am super not happy..

Fifthly, i am damn not happy..
Moreover, i am not happy..

On the other hand, i am still not happy..
In addition, i am not happy..

In conclusion i am not happy..

THE WHOLE OF XIONG XIONG IS *** *****

Xiao Xiong the Lazy Bear~~

Halow.. Tis is xiao xiong..

i am back again ler..
jus now xiong xiong woke up.. disturb dao wo oso..
now my roundy paw cannot go back to slp..
so i snatch xiong xiong's laptop..
write in bear crap..

recently i slp a lot oso..
i becoming more like piggy ler..
anyone wants to help mi~~~
pls shen chu YUAN paw..
help mi paw baaaa~~~~

+ a request from xiao xiong+

My Naughty Stomach~~~~

UGHHHHHHHH~~

Just woke up chiong washroom..

Now so damn xin ku..
Like kena poisoned like tat..
I seriously think my stomach got problem..
Maybe i ate something wrong..
How can it be?!!!!!

Sigh~~~
I am so troubled now..
Soooooooo troubled..

How is everyone doing today???
Got kena food poisoning a not??
If u got, i welcome u to join my food poisoning club..

If u got food poisoning 10 times a month i will present u a reward..
'' THE POISONOUS SHITTY AWARD''
I think with this award u can go and snatch people's toilet space..
No need to queue some more, cos u may die anytime..
The toilet cleaner serve you and only you..
If not enough u can acquire more cleaners to serve u..
In case u don't like females, can request for males..
Toilet paper too hard can ask for softy brand..
Too dirty surroundings can ask for a wash..
Too smelly can ask for air freshener..
All for FREE!!!!!
The Singapore toilet society will be so delighted to have you as their customer..

LOL~~~

Ok.. i lame liao..

ZzzzzzzzT~~
Zap myself..

Today my stomach faced several hardships..
Early in the morning only i laugh until i wanna die..
In a totally laughable and funny situation..
I was paking and paking..

I think my stomach cannot take it..
I push it too hard, now it wants revenge on me..
grrrr*

RAWR~~
I threatened to bite it just now..

So now slightly better..
If it becomes mischievous again i shall really do so..
LOLOL~~

ohhhhh~~ Its driving me crazy~~~
Lalalalalala~~~~

!!!
Stomachache again..
-_-
zzz..

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